AF, that is. I was really enjoying my freedom from her – after Illyria was born, it took a whole year for her to come back; this time it was 8 months. Last time, I was ready to start trying again – this time, not so much.
I am DONE. I have absolutely no doubt in my heart or mind. I have barely enough energy to meet the needs of these two… and I have zero desire to be pregnant again (possibly in large part because I have no doubt it would mean another high-risk pregnancy with hypertension, pre-e, and bed-rest, ending in c-section. No thanks).
So, what to do now? Condoms? The pill? Celibacy? Actually the third option seems the most feasible, given our state of sleep deprivation. Even when the kids sleep well, Gimli’s been having crazy insomnia and so we’ve both been grumpy and zest-less. But, well, we do love each other… that way… so we should probably have some kind of plan in place. I guess a lot of people go the vasectomy route, but Gimli’s completely wigged out by that idea so I don’t think it’s an option.
Anyway, it’s not like I’m assuming that the resumption of my monthly cycle means fertility, but Oz did happen without medical help, so I’m not going to assume it’s impossible, either. I just feel like I’m too old and tired to have any more children.