go read this

Here Serenity Now explains why it’s so hard to think about trying for #2:  it all has to do with having to go back to the doctor:

“So really, what it boils down to is the fact that right now I don’t actually want to GO BACK there.

To that place where I have to use a third party in order to make a baby. To that place where I get USED to the blood draws, and the ultrasounds, and the stirrups. Because that was our NORMAL.

And that’s the part that sucks, the part I wish was different.”

Clean Bill of Health

Had my annual exam today, finally – about a year overdue.  I like the new practice (moved back home from school end of May) I’m going to here; it’s the big clinical one in town, but I like the efficiency and professional competence. 

The NP thinks that it will be difficult to conceive again as long as I continue to nurse V., since ovulation will be unpredictable or not at all… I’m on my 4th cycle post-partum right now, and they have been 26 days, 45 days, and 32 days so far.  Temping has been irregular as well, so I couldn’t say for sure when or whether any ovulation is occuring.  Another incentive to work on weaning is that I have a small sore on the right npl, which is painful and won’t heal.  The NP said it looked like “trauma” and to put neosporin on it and work towards weaning.  At least it’s not thrush. 

The best part of the appointment?  My blood pressure is a healthy 100/60, and I’ve lost another 5 lbs.!

Other people’s words

You know how at this one ice cream chain they call the different sized servings “like it,” “love it,” etc?  Well, I’m starting a new feature here where I will cut and paste stuff from other blogs that really moved me, or was really funny, or just plain hit the nail on the head. 

Here is the first, from Murgdan, at Conceive This!  I just thought it was so eloquent a statement of her state of being after the frozen embryo transfer.  But you can read the whole post on her blog: 

“And now here I am. Resting in my recliner, feet up, googling pictures of cryopreserved embryos and reading about FET success rates. Enjoying this one day. For this one day I have life inside of me. For today there is possibility. For today there is hope. I love this day. Despite their shriveled appearance – I feel oddly good about this. I have no real reason to feel good about it, really. I just do. For today that’s enough.”

Dormant

I haven’t really had the energy, inspiration, or computer time to post this summer, and I don’t see that changing as we move into fall.  So I’m hanging up my “gone fishing” sign for the moment.  However, I will post any news that might occur.  For instance, there’s a chance that we may move to Albania next year.  Temporarily.  Really, I’m not making that up!!!  (I’ve a very bad liar!)

Meanwhile, I do continue to read religiously, although admittedly my commenting has gone the way of my posting lately.  Apologies.   I just need a little hiatus at the moment.