Can I?

On the path of transformation, you will experience forgiveness, which entails letting go of old hurts and resentments and opening up space in your heart to be affected by people and events freshly. Can you experience this in yourself today? ~ Enneagram Institute

Can I? That is the question. Our supervisor had a little talk with us Friday afternoon and I am WRECKED. It was really all about Gimli and his temper, but of course I’m implicated by association. So he and I had a long talk Saturday night over an entire bottle of wine and while it was good and cathartic, and had us on the same page by the end, I’m still stewing over the whole thing.

Can I let go of old hurts and resentments? Things that happened during our first few months here have deeply marked our experience – G and I have opposite ways of reacting to feeling slighted: he gets mad and tries to give as good as he got, or better; I withdraw. Last night I lay awake in bed for FIVE HOURS thinking over everything that has happened in the past five years, and how it could all have been different if only we’d gotten off to a better start.

Can I open up enough to make a fresh start? So much hinges on this question.

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2 Responses to “Can I?”

  1. Elsie S Says:

    Is 2016 the shit year for marriages?

    The question I am working on – “is it salvageable”?

    I hope you get the answers you seek.

  2. noemi Says:

    “Can I let go of old hurts and resentments?” <– This is the question I am constantly asking myself. Actually, I want the answer to be yes, so I ask myself HOW I can let go of old hurts and resentments. I'm not sure how to do it yet, but I do know that I want to, and honestly, for a long time I didn't. So I guess that is a step in the right direction.

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