Ants in my Pants

All attempts at distracting myself are not working – at least not for long. Thankfully classes start tomorrow; I should be too busy to obsess. But right now, even preparing for the class I’m teaching and reading this book are not quite enough to stop thinking about the fact that it’s CD31, BBT is holding steady over the coverline, and I could POAS if I wanted to. I’m giving myself til Sunday because I’ve had 35-day cycles before (well, before going on the Pill). This morning I lay in bed reading for about an hour before getting up, just because I was avoiding the decision to POAS or not to POAS, even though my bladder was bursting.


6 Responses to “Ants in my Pants”

  1. Zee Says:

    God bless you for your willpower, Elizabeth! I hope it ends in the Ultimate Reward this cycle.

    Are you enjoying the Philip Pull*man? I really liked that series. (There are a quite a few flaws, particularly in the last one, but I enjoyed all three a lot!) However, I’ve always been a little surprised that the folks who got all het up about Harry P0tter on religious grounds never went after these books? Any thoughts?

  2. Elizabeth Says:

    I read the first one while traveling through Bolivia and Colombia and it was just pure pleasure. I think that the books, while popular, have not sparked received the same amount of attention in the press, and so have escaped the attention of the religious right – or been lumped together with all non-Christian fantasy but not seen as threatening as the HP 7.

    I find the series fascinating as a former English major who took a Senior Seminar class in Modern Mythology at a Christian college, so we spent a whole semester reading the famous Christian fantasy writers “through the eyes of faith” as it were. One person in my class has actually gone on to write a series of devotional books for teens based on these famous books.

    I found this series enchanting and fascinating – I agree, flawed, and certainly with a visible axe to grind, but I enjoyed the very Blakean-ness of it all. I think the series would have been better without the pointedness of the attack on established religion, merited though it might be – where it succeeds best is where he maintains the complex, ambiguous tensions between “good” and “evil” in each person, and fails when characters are charicatures (like the church dude whose daemon is a snake – lapsing into that old archetype of evil where elsewhere he maintains a more creative tension). Anyway, I could go on (and on and on) but that’s my two cents right now FWIW!

    And I don’t know if its willpower, or just fear of disappointment. Every morning I don’t POAS it’s because I remember all those disappointing single lines and want to put that off a little longer.

    But then, it’s almost the weekend, and it would be nice to indulge in a glass of wine with friends.

  3. Elizabeth Says:

    Hm – just reread my post and found altogether too many flaws – whatever. The whole subject of faith becomes really complicated for me just in terms of having lapsed into agnosticism with regard to many tenets of the Christian faith, while still maintaining something of a connection with the church and wanting to identify as a Christian. Just not “that” kind of Christian. I’m not even sure WHAT kind of Christian. It seems altogether too complicated to try to explain right now.

  4. Caro Says:

    I’m quite nervous about the film version of that book as I enjoyed reading it.

    Oh and I agree great will power on the POAS front.

  5. SaraS-P Says:

    Stay strong with those pee sticks!

  6. Rachel Says:

    I hope your will power holds out and that gets you the positive you have been waiting for so long.

    I also hope the semester goes well for you. It’s amazing how much life changes when the new school year begins.

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