All right people, I need some advice. Sunday night I’m going to a grad student potluck where alcohol will freely flow (I’m assuming). Sunday is cd28 (my ticker is off by one day and I didn’t feel like fixing it). I was planning to POAS Sunday morning so I would know whether or not I could drink. But then I started thinking, what if it was a BFP? I wouldn’t want to tell anyone, but a few people know I’ve been trying and I wonder whether I could hide it. I don’t know. I think I can be pretty inscrutable when I want to be. Part of the issue is that I’ve put on some weight over the summer, and I’m worried that that factor combined with abstaining from alcohol will make people jump to conclusions (founded or unfounded).
Maybe I have to accept the fact that NOT EVERYBODY THINKS ABOUT THIS SHIT ALL THE TIME EVEN THOUGH I SEEM TO BE ABLE TO THINK ABOUT NOTHING ELSE.
Maybe the best ploy would be to slowly sip a glass of wine (at least hold it for a long time) but not actually drink anything, and not POAS until there seems to be reason to.
I’m trying to ignore my rack, which is currently fitting perfectly into a bra that was too big three weeks ago. But I’ve had too many cycles of big sore boobs with nothing to show for it to consider it anything too significant.